Monday, January 31, 2011

this time baby, I'll be bulletproof.

Some people bash relationships and some people praise them to the skies. After "falling in love" too many times, I've become rather cynical about relationships. But I've also reached a conundrum. I'm a cynic....and a hopeless romantic. I keep hoping that every guy I start to fall for will be different. But when I realized they're just the same as every other guy out there, I'm not surprised.

I'm not going to go into my love life, but suffice it to say romance is overrated. So many people are in a rush to fall in love and get married, but there's no rush. I'm being patient (finally) and I've decided that unless God drops a guy in my lap with a sign around his neck that says: "HE'S THE ONE" I'm not dating anyone.

Sure, one of these days I'd like to be married and have a family. But I'm not in any hurry. I've finally realized that I'm content where I am in life. I'm happy being single and having lots of good friends. Besides, I'm busy with school. Do I have time to commit to one person right now? Not really. God knows my future, and it's definitely time to trust Him and leave it all in His hands.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

life changing lyrics.

I just wanted to share the words to a couple songs. They're pretty awesome. 

"In Christ Alone"

In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

"Heart of Worship"

When the music fades, all is stripped away, and I simply come;
Longing just to bring, something that's of worth
That will bless your heart.
I'll bring you more than a song,
For a song in itself is not what you have required
You search much deeper within,
Through the way things appear;
You're looking into my heart.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You, its all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it, 
When it's all about You, all about You, Jesus.

King of endless worth, no one could express, how much You deserve;
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours, every single breath.
I'll bring you more than a son, 
For a song in itself is not what you have required
You search much deeper within,
Through the way things appear;
You're looking into my heart.

"God be Merciful to Me."
God be merciful to me; on thy grace I rest my plea.
Plenteous in compassion thou, blot out my transgressions now;
Wash me, make me pure within; cleanse, o cleanse me from my sin.

My transgressions I confess; grief and guilt my soul oppress.
I have sinned against thy grace, and provoked thee to thy face.
I confess thy judgment just; speechless, I thy mercy trust.

I am evil, born in sin; thou desirest truth within.
Thou alone my Savior art, teach thy wisdom to my heart.
Thy grace bestow, wash me whiter than the snow.

Broken, humbled to the dust by thy wrath and judgment just,
Let my contrite heart rejoice, and in gladness hear thy voice;
From my sins o hide thy face, blot them out with boundless grace.
Gracious God, my heart renew, make my spirit right and true.
Cast me not away from Thee, let thy spirit dwell in me;
Thy salvation's joy impart, steadfast make my willing heart.

Sinner then shall learn from me, and return O God to thee.
Savior all my guilt remove, and my tongue shall sing thy love.
Touch my silent lips, O Lord, and my mouth shall praise accord.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

planning my life.....or not.

When I think about my future, I hope there's a husband and family in it somewhere. I'd like to have a couple books published and maybe even live on the beach. I'd like to finish college. 

God has a way of changing our plans. I wanted to play basketball last semester. Basketball is my favorite sport. I wanted to be active and go running. I was planning on it. 

On July 8, 2010 I was playing volleyball and I dislocated my ankle and tore two ligaments completely. It pretty much took all activeness out of my plans for at least the next 6 months. 

The day after I hurt my ankle I was looking through my devotions notebook. I noticed that the morning of July 8, I read 4 verses that had a huge impact on the way I looked at the injury. 

Lamentations 3:22-23 - "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end.; they are new every morning, great is your faithfulness."

Romans 8:28 - "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."

Romans 9:16 - "So then it depends not on human will or exertion but on God, who has mercy."

I look back and realize that God put those verses in front of me that morning in preparation for what was to come. 

These 4 verses have become my life verses. The verses I go to when something "goes wrong" in my life. God has a plan for me. And while I may not understand it or like it at the time, I know that it is for my benefit and his glory.


When the pastor makes the announcement that he's going to be starting a sermon series on Romans, many Christians groan. Romans is a theologically heavy book of the Bible and sadly a lot of the Christian community doesn't like the heavy doctrine of Paul's letter. I love Romans. It's my favorite book and I have to make myself study the other books. All I want to do is read Romans and go into greater depth.

In my New Testament Survey Class, we're just now discussing Romans. I already had so many verses underlined and notes in the margins and I've added more. Some verses I have underlined twice. Romans is just such a powerful book. There are so many amazing verses. And not to say that the rest of the Bible isn't just as powerful and amazing.

Some of my favorite verses:
1:16-17; "For I am not ashamed of the gospel for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also the Greek. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith for faith as it is written, 'The righteous shall live by faith.'"
-This is what the gospel is! The true wording of the last sentence in the original language: the righteous by faith shall live.
7:18; "For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out."
-How frustrating is this? I want to be more like Christ, but it seems like every day I fail. To quote a song by Lecrae: "If I'm a Christian, how come every day I seem to fall." (Used To Do It Too) Thankfully, we have Romans 8:28:
"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." If we continue on into verses 29-30 we find the doctrine of predestination.
"For those whom he FOREKNEW he also PREDESTINED to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he PREDESTINED he also CALLED, and those whom he CALLED he also JUSTIFIED and those whom he JUSTIFIED these he also GLORIFIED."
-These verses lay out the process of salvation and our Christian walk and the 5 points of Calvinism: TULIP. God knew us before we were born and knew that we were going to be sinners. (foreknew--Total Depravity). He decided that we were going to be his children (predestined--Unconditional Election). He called us to his side (called--Irresistible Grace). He washed away our sins with Christ's blood on the cross (justified--Limited Atonement). Then finally, he makes us perfect like him in heaven (glorified--Perseverance of the Saints)
11:33; "Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!"
Paul is so clear in his teachings. I don't understand how people don't understand. In chapter 12:9-21 we find the marks of the true Christian:
"Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own thoughts to do what is honorable in the sigh to fall. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, 'Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.' To the contrary, if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals of fire on his head. Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."
If you're already a Christian and you're struggling with your walk with Christ I hope you find this mini study on Romans encouraging. There is so much more in this amazing book, don't write it off.
If you're reading this and you've resisted the church, the Bible, and all things "religious" your whole life...I hope you become curious. I hope you are one of the elect. I pray that God will work in your heart and bring you to a saving knowledge of him.
If you have questions or comments, leave a comment or shoot me a message.

"Now to him who is able to strengthen you according to my gospel and the preaching of Jesus Christ, according to the revelation of the mystery that was kept secret for long ages but has now been disclosed and through the prophetic writings has been made known to all nations, according to the command of the eternal God, to being about the obedience of faith--to the only wise God be glory forevermore through Jesus Christ! Amen."
-Romans 16:25-27

Thursday, January 27, 2011

out with the old.. in with the new.

Welcome to my blog!
This blog will be about me: Chelsea Leigh and my life in college. I still have three years left, I think that's plenty enough room for growth. I hope to post every day. Some days will be specific things. Other days will be rants of frustration. The rest of the days I'll write about things that happened that day or just have a little random chat.

A little about me:
I'm a freshman in college. I'm majoring in English:Writing at Providence Christian College in Southern California. I love to write.
I'm fairly new to the blogging scene, but I love it. I'm also on the staff of the Beggar Blade, my school's online newspaper. One of these days, I may update this little blog into a website, but for now we'll see how it goes as a blog.

I'm into a lot of different music, tv shows, movies etc.. so I got through phases. Currently I'm obsessed with Straight No Chaser, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and Star Wars. You should check them out.

So, hey. Leave a comment and say hi. I like people.